I've always tied so much of my value to what I was producing via my past jobs or, in more recent years, through my flooring business or even the podcast. My worth was very directly tied to all of it. While I was trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my installation business, where the podcast should go, and what other ventures I am interested in, I wasn't producing a whole lot and was struggling with feeling worthless. I wasn't moving anywhere. I wasn't accomplishing anything. I was just at a standstill. None of the above was correct though. I was struggling with me.
I spent seven years growing Illustrious Hardwoods and three years on Floor Academy. I gave it everything I had. There wasn't a lot of downtime. I may have been around my family, but I wasn't present. That level of dedication destroyed me—mentally and physically.